玉麟筆記 Yulin’s Note

分享了三段倪柝聲弟兄在「屬靈進步的首要條件」的話語。第一段的「飢渴」叫人感動，第二段的「出代價」叫人受激勵、受催促，然而衝擊最大、最扎心的還是第三段的「吸引人羨慕神」。

還記得多年前在一次的同工交通中，朱弟兄的提醒，「當人都說你好的時候，你就有禍了。」但是哪有屬肉體的人不喜歡聽見別人稱讚的好話？又有哪些服事主的人在天然裡不盼望得一些的鼓勵？直到服事多年了，慢慢地才領會主光照的話語，才開始思量：在所有說我好的弟兄姊妹中，有多少人因著我產生屬靈的羨慕，而改變他們的生活來愛主、來追求主、來服事主？

服事主、服事教會當然有喜樂、歡騰的時候，也看見許多弟兄姊妹的愛主與擺上。但許多時候的確感到重壓、徬徨與無力。以前不懂為什麼弟兄姊妹這麼軟弱，慢慢覺得是我自己身上的馨香之氣不夠濃郁；以前嘆息弟兄姊妹的奉獻太少，現在漸漸覺得其實是自己身上缺少屬靈的突破。

I have shared three paragraphs from “The foremost condition for spiritual progress” by Watchman Nee. The first one “hunger” is quite touching, and the second one “paying the price” is very encouraging and impulsive. However, what impacts most and feels cutting to the heart is the third paragraph “Attract men to aspire after God.”

Many years ago in a fellowship among co-workers, Brother Titus Chu reminded, “Woe to you when all men speak well of you.” Nevertheless, how can a flesh person not like to hear praising words? How can a servant of the Lord in his nature not like to receive some encouragement? After serving for years, gradually I am enlightened by the Lord’s words, and begin to consider: those brothers and sisters who spoke well of me, how many of them really changed their life to love, to pursue and to serve the Lord because they admire the spirituality of me?

There are joyful and jubilant times to serve the Lord and the church, seeing that many people love the Lord and devote themselves to Him. But more often there are times feeling stressed, wondering, and even powerless. I used to think why many brothers and sisters were so weak, now I start to feel it is because I am short of the aroma of Christ. I used to wonder why not many brothers and sisters devote themselves more to the Lord, and now I begin to feel there is some spiritual barrier I didn’t breakthrough.